Greetings,
While chatting with an online friend, Joseph T. McMahon, about a treatise of quotes on silence he has been working on – as well as his "Peace Is Already Here" website, and "Maha Mauna (The Great Silence)" and "Embodiment of Silence" Facebook pages – it occurred to me to take a look at all that had been written about it since I began scribing in 1989. As might be expected, the creative juices took hold, and this is the result, with a rabbit hole wander of thoughts from all the major titles: The Stillness Before Time, The Ponderings of Yaj Ekim, the seven Breadcrumbs titles, and The Return to Wonder.
A PDF is also available:
Of Noise & Silence
Contemplations on the Vibrations of Consciousness
https://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/ofnoiseandsilence.pdf
And links to Joseph T. McMahon’s contributions:
Peace Is Already Here
https://www.peaceisalreadyhere.com/
Maha Mauna (Great Silence)
https://www.facebook.com/groups/166379210455377/
Embodiment of Silence
https://www.facebook.com/groups/1745901259183074
The Shadow of the Divine Feminine
https://ofaphilosophicalnature.blogspot.com/2021/09/the-shadow-of-divine-feminine.html
Writing has been an enjoyable process ever since I first began toying with prose; scribbling poetry, keeping journals, corresponding with friends and acquaintances during the college daze. The philosophical/mystical/whatever-you-want-to-call-them thoughts, that have been popping into mind since 1989, have always been very out-of-the-blue spontaneous. Nothing planned or forced about them. They are being shared on the off chance that others may find them of interest, though, quite frankly, it really does not matter if no one else ever even reads them, for I am, first and foremost, my own audience. I got mine, so to speak. I played my little part. I had my share of fun. And it is, as it has ever been, up to each to discern their own, on their own.
There are really no followers in this Don Quixote quest; only earnest seekers, who waylay their desires and fears and dreads, enough to discern that which is the end to doubt, the end to dueling with windmills. “Yay” if it is your fate to figure it out. “Oh well” if it is not. And “so it goes” either way, really. Ecclesiastes 1:2 is always a good reminder: “Vanity of vanities,” saith the Preacher, “Vanity of vanities. All is vanity.” Awareness can only, with great effort, regain control, regain sovereignty, from the usurper, imagination, creator of all that is time, creator of all that is space. Creator of all that is illusion, has never been anything more than illusion, will never be anything more than illusion. Only as real as the given moment.
“The Stillness Before Time” is the original work that came together in 1992, including mostly aphorisms, an essay, a newspaper question-and-answer, ten reflections, and lists of both movies and books. Though an early self-published version, long since edited and expanded, can be purchased at major booksellers, a downloadable copy is available, no charge, at the link below. There are also links to a variety of blogs of other creations by me, along with links to many writings of a similar nature, by thinkers and seers from across all times, across all geographies. "The Ponderings of Yaj Ekim" is the second published book, and is both blogged and available as a PDF download.
The “Breadcrumbs” titles, published annually since 2015, all include the core chapters: Leftovers, Soundbites, Breadcrumbs. In the Breadcrumbs chapters, I unleash thoughts of a more personal nature than in the other two. All just to show I was ensconced in a living, breathing, relativity mundane, oftentimes foolish, mortal mind-body. An actor playing the hand that was dealt; same as everyone else, vain as everyone else. No need to sculpt me into more than I was. No need for myths, nor legends, nor fables, nor miracles, nor cult followings, nor any other fictions, any other absurdities, over to which the human mind, and all its imaginary history, has so often given itself. The Breadcrumbs chapters prove me again and again to be yet another Shakespearian player, as full of the limited and arbitrary as anyone else born into this dream of space and time. So please be sure not to shape me, or these many random thoughts, into some dogmatic absurdity. Use them as a launchpad, not an orbit.
“The Return to Wonder” blog is a compendium of aphorisms not included in the three other works: The Stillness Before Time, The Ponderings of Yaj Ekim, and Breadcrumbs. It originally totaled 3,000 pages formatted in 300 ten-page chapters written since 1990-ish. A gradual editing that will likely never be completed, is changing that dynamic into something of a mishmash.
Please note that this sort of wordplay is very haphazard, way too much work to put into any order. Probably best read it in bits and pieces in the here and there. One of those open-to-any-page works. Especially well-suited for coffee shops, coffee tables, and porcelain thrones.
Also note that all writings are always subject to updates and editing, so if you are interested in the most current version – before this house of cards comes tumbling down, and the world grows large again – downloading PDF copies every once and a while might be a reasonable discipline. This applies especially to the current year of Breadcrumbs, which could well be an annual project until the last wheezing breath, though frankly, the temptation to stop writing entirely is not off the table. It is a pleasant way to pass some of the countdown remaining, but it is unlikely there is much ground that has not been wandered by this frame of reference far more than enough already. No matter how many times Sisyphus rolls the boulder up the mountain, it is more than a little doubtful that the blind men and their true-believer followers, will ever discern, ever realize, ever embrace, the elephant in the middle of the room, without fabricating some new form of absurdity. It is the way we roll, it is the way we have always rolled, it is the way we will, far more than probably, always roll. Every species has its limitations, and we have in this mind’s eye, far-exceeded ours.
That said, if you do find these many thoughts at all worth preserving, for whatever times are ahead for this world and all its life forms, please feel free to share them with others who might also appreciate them. Else they may well swiftly slip back into the timeless oblivion from whence they came.
So it goes, either way. I played my part, I said my piece, I had my fun.
All the best,
M
P.S. For best viewing online, using the largest screen you have available to explore my little theme park, is suggested. Scrolling down and down on a phone screen is just not going to give you the same entrée.
P.P.S. The keywords used to select the following content include: Silen (Silence, Silent), quiet, noise, cacophony.
P.P.P.S. Regarding the name Yaj Ekim ... It is just a reverse spelling of the first and middle names ... Michael Jay Holshouser ... Mike Jay ... Yaj Ekim.
P.P.P.P.S. Coincidently, make of it whatever you will, or will not, Yaj is an Indian boy’s name meaning worshipper, sacrifice, another name for Shiva, a sage. And Ekim is a Turkish name for October meaning “sowing” (of seeds). All kinds of absurdity can be read into that by the many so-inclined – none of which was in mind when I came up with the idea to reverse the letters to my name. See P.P.P.S. for details.
P.P.P.P.P.S. Yes, I am Shiva. And so are You. No, I am not Shiva. And neither are you. Irony and paradox rule.
The Stillness Before Time
Reflections From a Fellow Sojourner
There is really only one Way.
It is without division or boundary.
It is without name or theology.
Awareness is its scripture.
Here now, its venue.
You, its witness.
Your life, the journey.
Website
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com
Blog
https://thestillnessbeforetime.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thestillnessbeforetime.pdf
One Through Thirty
One * 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17
18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 * Thirty
Of the Human Journey
https://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/ofthehumanjourney.html
Got God?
https://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/gotgod.html
Ten Reflections
https://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/tenreflections.html
Books
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/books.html
Movies
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/movies.html
Links
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/links.html
Blogs
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/blogs.html
The Original Works
The Stillness Before Time,
Reflections From a Fellow Sojourner
https://thestillnessbeforetime.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thestillnessbeforetime.pdf
The Ponderings of Yaj Ekim
https://theponderingsofyajekim.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/theponderingsofyajekim.pdf
Breadcrumbs 2015
Bits and Pieces From a Dream of Time
https://breadcrumbs2015.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/breadcrumbs2015.pdf
Breadcrumbs 2018
Bits and Pieces From a Dream of Time
https://breadcrumbs2018.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/breadcrumbs2018.pdf
Breadcrumbs 2019
Bits and Pieces From a Dream of Time
https://breadcrumbs2019.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/breadcrumbs2019.pdf
Breadcrumbs 2020
Bits and Pieces From a Dream of Time
https://breadcrumbs2020yajekim.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/breadcrumbs2020.pdf
Breadcrumbs 2021
Bits and Pieces From a Dream of Time
https://breadcrumbs2021.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/breadcrumbs2021.pdf
Breadcrumbs 2022
Bits and Pieces From a Dream of Time
https://breadcrumbs2022.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/breadcrumbs2022.pdf
Breadcrumbs 2023 & Beyond
Bits and Pieces From a Dream of Time
https://breadcrumbs2023.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/breadcrumbs2023.pdf
The Return to Wonder
Field Notes from the Unknown
(Major edit underway – New copy colored blue and green)
https://thereturntowonder.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thereturntowonder.pdf
The Derivative Collection
Aftershocks Autumn 2024
https://aftershocksautumn2024.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/aftershocks2024.pdf
Frames of Reference
Peering Through the Windows of Perception
https://framesofreferenceperception.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/framesofreference.pdf
Imagination: The Great Usurper
https://imaginationthegreatusurper.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/imaginationthegreatusurper.pdf
Jesus on Prophets
What Any Seer Likely Faces Returning to the Cave of Origin
https://jesusonprophets.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/jesusonprophets.pdf
Lost in Translation
The Human Paradigm’s Linguistic Muddle
https://lostintranslationyajekim.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/lostintranslation.pdf
Michael’s Rabbit Hole
A Selection of Breadcrumbs & Other Aphorisms
https://michaelsrabbithole.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/michaelsrabbithole.pdf
Of Meaning & Purpose
Ponderings About the Futility of It All
https://ofmeaningandpurpose.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ofmeaningandpurpose.pdf
Of Noise & Silence
Contemplations on the Vibrations of Consciousness
https://ofnoiseandsilence.blogspot.com
https://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/ofnoiseandsilence.pdf
Standouts From the Return to Wonder Edit
Selections From the First Sixteen Chapters
https://standoutsfromthereturntowonderedit.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/standouts.pdf
The Call of the Eternal
A Conversation With My Self
https://thecalloftheeternal.blogspot.com
https://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/thecalloftheeternal.pdf
The Gordian Knot of Ethical Thinking
https://thegordianknotofethicalthinking.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thegordianknotofethicalthinking.pdf
The ‘And More’ Collection
Doubt, Doubt & More Doubt
https://doubtdoubtandmoredoubt.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/doubtdoubtandmoredoubt.pdf
History, History & More History
https://historyhistoryandmorehistory.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/historyhistoryandmorehistory.pdf
Imagination, Imagination & More Imagination
https://imaginationandmoreimagination.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/imaginationimaginationandmoreimagination.pdf
Mystery, Mystery & More Mystery
https://mysterymysteryandmoremystery.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/mysterymysteryandmoremystery.pdf
Patterns, Patterns & More Patterns
https://evenmorepatterns.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/patternspatternsandmorepatterns.pdf
Reincarnation, Reincarnation & More Reincarnation
https://reincarnationandmorereincarnation.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/reincarnationreincarnationandmorereincarnation.pdf
Science, Science & More Science
https://yajekimscienceandmorescience.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/sciencescienceandmorescience.pdf
The Singles Collection
59 Moments to The Way It Is (And Is Not)
https://59momentstothewayitisandisnot.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/59momentstothewayitisandisnot.pdf
Of the Human Journey
Along with ‘Got God?’ and ‘Ten Reflections’
https://ofthehumanjourney.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ofthehumanjourney.pdf
The Mystery of the Mystery
https://themysteryofthemysteryseries.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/themysteryofthemysteryseries.pdf
The Real is Discovering
https://therealisdiscoveringseries.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/therealisdiscoveringseries.pdf
To Be, or Not to Be
https://thetobeornottobeseries.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thetobeornottobeseries.pdf
Who Was the First?
https://thewhowasthefirstseries.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thewhowasthefirstseries.pdf
The Sidebar Collection
A Short List of Books for the Up and Coming
Some Written Works That May Help Get the Young Up to Speed
https://listofbooksfortheupandcoming.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashortlistofbooksfortheupandcoming.pdf
Breadcrumbs: The Original Blog
https://michaelsbreadcrumbs.blogspot.com/2015/01/under-construction_28.html
Conversations
A Variety of Letters, Emails, Texts, & Sundry Odds 'n Ends
https://conversationsyajekim.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/conversations.pdf
Definitions
An Incomplete Selection of Contemplative Definitions
https://definitionsyajekim.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/definitions.pdf
Ditties for the Bluegrass Pyre
https://dittiesforthebluegrasspyre.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/dittiesforthebluegrasspyre.pdf
Even More
Titles, Titles & More Titles
https://theevenmoreseries.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/theevenmoreseries.pdf
Jester Amok
https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10212852298760058&type=3
https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.1311100495387&type=3
My (Not Quite) Haiku
https://mynotquitehaiku.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/mynotquitehaiku.pdf
Once Upon a Christmas
https://onceuponchristmas.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/onceuponachristmas.pdf
Possible Last Words & Epitaphs
https://possiblelastwordsandepitaphs.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/possiblelastwordsandepitaphs.pdf
Sketches of the Once Upon a Time
A Few Epiphanies and Other Hallmark Moments
https://sketchesoftheonceuponatime.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/sketchesoftheonceuponatime.pdf
Spam Responses (a.k.a., WTF Is This Shit!?)
https://spamresponsesakawtfisthisshit.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/spamresponsesakawtfisthisshit.pdf
The Corollaries of Yaj Ekim
https://corollariesyajekim.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thecorollariesofyajekim.pdf
The Standard Ripostes
The Scribe’s Go-to Responses to This and That in the Day-To-Day
https://thestandardripostes.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thestandardripostes.pdf
Titles, Titles & More Titles
https://evenmoretitles.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/titlestitlesandmoretitles.pdf
Uncle Sam Says
https://whatunclesamsays.blogspot.com
https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.1311088415085&type=3
Michael Holshouser
https://www.facebook.com/michael.holshouser/?show_switched_toast=0
Michael’s Little Warehouse of All Things Amusing, Absurd & Profound
https://www.facebook.com/notes/344174083313569
Fichier Circulaire de Michaël (Michael’s Circular File)
https://www.facebook.com/LeFichierCirculaireDeMichael
Yaj Ekim
https://www.facebook.com/yaj.ekim.1
Hughson Union High School Class of ‘72
https://www.facebook.com/Hughson-Union-High-School-Class-of-72-301790023189950
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Michael Holshouser
https://www.blogger.com/profile/12270094801824803661
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Michael Holshouser
A Collection of Miscellaneous Blogs
Final Exit and Related Links
https://finalexitandrelatedlinks.blogspot.com
COVID-19 Information Links
https://covid19informationlinks.blogspot.com
The Four Agreements
https://donmiguelsfiveagreements.blogspot.com
The Blind Men and the Elephant
https://theelephantandheblindmen.blogspot.com
Of A Philosophical Nature
https://ofaphilosophicalnature.blogspot.com
Uncle Sam Says
https://whatunclesamsays.blogspot.com
The Joyful Curmudgeon
https://thejoyfulcurmudgeon.blogspot.com
Quotes, Quotes & More Quotes
https://quotesaplenty.blogspot.com
Fichier Circulaire de Michael
https://michaelscircularfile.blogspot.com
50 Rules Kids Won’t Learn in School
https://50ruleskidswontlearninschool.blogspot.com
How to Work in Any Environment
https://howtoworkinanyenvironment.blogspot.com
12 Rules You Can Live By
https://12rulesyoucanliveby.blogspot.com
Election 2016: The Rise (and Fall?) of Donald Trump
https://theriseandfallofdonaldtrump.blogspot.com
Michael's Little Warehouse of All Things Amusing, Absurd & Profound
https://michaelslittlewarehouse.blogspot.com
Nine Translations of the Ashtavakra Gita
The Heart of Awareness (Byrom)
https://theheartofawareness.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/theheartofawarenessbyrom.pdf
Ashtavakra Gita (Marshall)
https://theashtavakra.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakrafitamarshall.pdf
Bitten by the Black Snake (Schoch)
https://bittenbytheblacksnake.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/bittenbytheblacksnakeschoch.pdf
A Duet of One (Balsekar)
https://aduetofone.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/aduetofonebalsekar.pdf
Ashtavakra Gita (Richards)
https://anotherashtavakragita.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakragitarichards.pdf
Astavakra Samhita (Wood)
https://astavakrasamhita.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/astavakrasamhitawood.pdf
Ashtavakra Gita (Shastri)
https://ashtravakrageeeta.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakragitashastri.pdf
Ashtavakra Gita (Saraswati)
https://ashtavakragitasaraswati.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakragitasaraswati.pdf
Ashtavakra Gita (Vedic Scriptures)
https://ashtravakrageeta.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakragitavedic.pdf
Ashtavakra Gita: I Am Shiva
Ashtavakra Gita: I Am Shiva
https://ashtavakragitaiamshiva.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakragitaiamshiva.pdf
I Am Shiva Comparison Chart
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/iamshivacomparisonchart.pdf
Four Translations of the Avadhuta Gita
Avadhuta Gita: Song of the Ever-Free (Marshall)
https://avadhutagitasongoftheeverfree.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/avadhutagitasongoftheeverfree.pdf
Song of the Avadhut (Abhayananda)
https://songoftheavadhut.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/songoftheavadhut.pdf
Avadhut Gita (Shastri)
https://avadhutgitabydattatreya.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/avadhutgitabydattatreya.pdf
The Song of the Ascetic (Sinha)
https://thesongoftheasceticavadhuta.blogspot.com
https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thesongoftheascetic.pdf
Translations of Other Ancient Writings
Tao Te Ching: Verse One
https://taotechingverseone.blogspot.com
Tao Te Ching (Marshall)
https://theperennialway-taoteching.blogspot.com
Bhagavad Gita (Marshall)
https://bhagavadgitamarshall.blogspot.com
Yoga Sutras (Marshall)
https://yogasutrasbypatanjali.blogspot.com
Dhammapada (Marshall)
https://buddhasdhammapada.blogspot.com
The Book of Ecclesiastes (Marshall)
https://21ecclesiastesmarshall.blogspot.com
Atma Bodha (Chinmayananda)
https://theatmabodha.blogspot.com
The Essence of the Ribhu Gita (Ramamoorthy & Nome)
https://theribhugita.blogspot.com
Yoga Vasishta Sara (Ramasramam)
https://yogavasishtasara.blogspot.com
Crest-Jewel of Discrimination (Madhavananda)
https://crest-jewelofdiscrimination.blogspot.com
Mandukya Upanishad & Mandukya Karika of Gaudapada (Panoli)
https://mandukyaupanishadpanoli.blogspot.com
Gaudapada: Advaita Vedanta’s First Philosopher (Jones)
https://advaitavedantasfirstphilosopher.blogspot.com/2020/02/on-tradition.html
Translations of Ancient Writings by Bart Marshall
Avadhuta Gita: Song of the Ever-Free
https://avadhutagitasongoftheeverfree.blogspot.com
Ashtavakra Gita
https://theashtavakra.blogspot.com
Tao Te Ching
https://theperennialway-taoteching.blogspot.com
Bhagavad Gita
https://bhagavadgitamarshall.blogspot.com
Yoga Sutras
https://yogasutrasbypatanjali.blogspot.com
Dhammapada
https://buddhasdhammapada.blogspot.com
The Book of Ecclesiastes
https://21ecclesiastesmarshall.blogspot.com
Writings by Bart Marshall
Verses Regarding True Nature
https://versesregardingtruenaturemarshall.blogspot.com
One Hundred Two Haiku
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Of Noise & Silence
Contemplations on the Vibrations of Consciousness
https://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/ofnoiseandsilence.pdf
https://ofnoiseandsilence.blogspot.com
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