Preface

 
Preface
 
 

Greetings,

 

While chatting with an online friend, Joseph T. McMahon, about a treatise of quotes on silence he has been working on – as well as his "Peace Is Already Here" website, and "Maha Mauna (The Great Silence)" and "Embodiment of Silence" Facebook pages – it occurred to me to take a look at all that had been written about it since I began scribing in 1989. As might be expected, the creative juices took hold, and this is the result, with a rabbit hole wander of thoughts from all the major titles: The Stillness Before Time, The Ponderings of Yaj Ekim, the seven Breadcrumbs titles, and The Return to Wonder.

 
A PDF is also available:

 

Of Noise & Silence

Contemplations on the Vibrations of Consciousness

https://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/ofnoiseandsilence.pdf

 

And links to Joseph T. McMahon’s contributions:

 

Peace Is Already Here

https://www.peaceisalreadyhere.com/

 

Maha Mauna (Great Silence)

https://www.facebook.com/groups/166379210455377/


Embodiment of Silence

https://www.facebook.com/groups/1745901259183074

 

The Shadow of the Divine Feminine

https://ofaphilosophicalnature.blogspot.com/2021/09/the-shadow-of-divine-feminine.html

 

Writing has been an enjoyable process ever since I first began toying with prose; scribbling poetry, keeping journals, corresponding with friends and acquaintances during the college daze. The philosophical/mystical/whatever-you-want-to-call-them thoughts, that have been popping into mind since 1989, have always been very out-of-the-blue spontaneous. Nothing planned or forced about them. They are being shared on the off chance that others may find them of interest, though, quite frankly, it really does not matter if no one else ever even reads them, for I am, first and foremost, my own audience. I got mine, so to speak. I played my little part. I had my share of fun. And it is, as it has ever been, up to each to discern their own, on their own.

 

There are really no followers in this Don Quixote quest; only earnest seekers, who waylay their desires and fears and dreads, enough to discern that which is the end to doubt, the end to dueling with windmills. “Yay” if it is your fate to figure it out. “Oh well” if it is not. And “so it goes” either way, really. Ecclesiastes 1:2 is always a good reminder: “Vanity of vanities,” saith the Preacher, “Vanity of vanities. All is vanity.” Awareness can only, with great effort, regain control, regain sovereignty, from the usurper, imagination, creator of all that is time, creator of all that is space. Creator of all that is illusion, has never been anything more than illusion, will never be anything more than illusion. Only as real as the given moment.

 

“The Stillness Before Time” is the original work that came together in 1992, including mostly aphorisms, an essay, a newspaper question-and-answer, ten reflections, and lists of both movies and books. Though an early self-published version, long since edited and expanded, can be purchased at major booksellers, a downloadable copy is available, no charge, at the link below. There are also links to a variety of blogs of other creations by me, along with links to many writings of a similar nature, by thinkers and seers from across all times, across all geographies. "The Ponderings of Yaj Ekim" is the second published book, and is both blogged and available as a PDF download.

 

The “Breadcrumbs” titles, published annually since 2015, all include the core chapters: Leftovers, Soundbites, Breadcrumbs. In the Breadcrumbs chapters, I unleash thoughts of a more personal nature than in the other two. All just to show I was ensconced in a living, breathing, relativity mundane, oftentimes foolish, mortal mind-body. An actor playing the hand that was dealt; same as everyone else, vain as everyone else. No need to sculpt me into more than I was. No need for myths, nor legends, nor fables, nor miracles, nor cult followings, nor any other fictions, any other absurdities, over to which the human mind, and all its imaginary history, has so often given itself. The Breadcrumbs chapters prove me again and again to be yet another Shakespearian player, as full of the limited and arbitrary as anyone else born into this dream of space and time. So please be sure not to shape me, or these many random thoughts, into some dogmatic absurdity. Use them as a launchpad, not an orbit.

 

“The Return to Wonder” blog is a compendium of aphorisms not included in the three other works: The Stillness Before Time, The Ponderings of Yaj Ekim, and Breadcrumbs. It originally totaled 3,000 pages formatted in 300 ten-page chapters written since 1990-ish. A gradual editing that will likely never be completed, is changing that dynamic into something of a mishmash.

 

Please note that this sort of wordplay is very haphazard, way too much work to put into any order. Probably best read it in bits and pieces in the here and there. One of those open-to-any-page works. Especially well-suited for coffee shops, coffee tables, and porcelain thrones.

 

Also note that all writings are always subject to updates and editing, so if you are interested in the most current version – before this house of cards comes tumbling down, and the world grows large again – downloading PDF copies every once and a while might be a reasonable discipline. This applies especially to the current year of Breadcrumbs, which could well be an annual project until the last wheezing breath, though frankly, the temptation to stop writing entirely is not off the table. It is a pleasant way to pass some of the countdown remaining, but it is unlikely there is much ground that has not been wandered by this frame of reference far more than enough already. No matter how many times Sisyphus rolls the boulder up the mountain, it is more than a little doubtful that the blind men and their true-believer followers, will ever discern, ever realize, ever embrace, the elephant in the middle of the room, without fabricating some new form of absurdity. It is the way we roll, it is the way we have always rolled, it is the way we will, far more than probably, always roll. Every species has its limitations, and we have in this mind’s eye, far-exceeded ours.

 

That said, if you do find these many thoughts at all worth preserving, for whatever times are ahead for this world and all its life forms, please feel free to share them with others who might also appreciate them. Else they may well swiftly slip back into the timeless oblivion from whence they came.

 

So it goes, either way. I played my part, I said my piece, I had my fun.

 

All the best,

 

M

 

 

P.S. For best viewing online, using the largest screen you have available to explore my little theme park, is suggested. Scrolling down and down on a phone screen is just not going to give you the same entrée.

 

P.P.S. The keywords used to select the following content include: Silen (Silence, Silent), quiet, noise, cacophony.

 

P.P.P.S. Regarding the name Yaj Ekim ... It is just a reverse spelling of the first and middle names ... Michael Jay Holshouser ... Mike Jay ... Yaj Ekim.

 

P.P.P.P.S. Coincidently, make of it whatever you will, or will not, Yaj is an Indian boy’s name meaning worshipper, sacrifice, another name for Shiva, a sage. And Ekim is a Turkish name for October meaning “sowing” (of seeds). All kinds of absurdity can be read into that by the many so-inclined – none of which was in mind when I came up with the idea to reverse the letters to my name. See P.P.P.S. for details.

 

P.P.P.P.P.S. Yes, I am Shiva. And so are You. No, I am not Shiva. And neither are you. Irony and paradox rule. 

 
 
 

The Stillness Before Time

Reflections From a Fellow Sojourner

 

 

There is really only one Way.

It is without division or boundary.

It is without name or theology.

Awareness is its scripture.

Here now, its venue.

You, its witness.

Your life, the journey.

 

 

Website

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com

 

Blog

https://thestillnessbeforetime.blogspot.com

 

PDF

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thestillnessbeforetime.pdf

 

 

One Through Thirty
One * 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17

18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 * Thirty 

 

 

Of the Human Journey

https://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/ofthehumanjourney.html 

 

Got God?

https://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/gotgod.html 

 

Ten Reflections

https://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/tenreflections.html

 

 

Books

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/books.html

 

Movies

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/movies.html

 

Links

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/links.html

 

Blogs

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/blogs.html

 

 

The Original Works

 

The Stillness Before Time,

Reflections From a Fellow Sojourner

https://thestillnessbeforetime.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thestillnessbeforetime.pdf


The Ponderings of Yaj Ekim

https://theponderingsofyajekim.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/theponderingsofyajekim.pdf

 

Breadcrumbs 2015

Bits and Pieces From a Dream of Time

https://breadcrumbs2015.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/breadcrumbs2015.pdf

 

Breadcrumbs 2018

Bits and Pieces From a Dream of Time

https://breadcrumbs2018.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/breadcrumbs2018.pdf

 

Breadcrumbs 2019

Bits and Pieces From a Dream of Time

https://breadcrumbs2019.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/breadcrumbs2019.pdf

 

Breadcrumbs 2020

Bits and Pieces From a Dream of Time

https://breadcrumbs2020yajekim.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/breadcrumbs2020.pdf

 

Breadcrumbs 2021

Bits and Pieces From a Dream of Time

https://breadcrumbs2021.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/breadcrumbs2021.pdf

 

Breadcrumbs 2022

Bits and Pieces From a Dream of Time

https://breadcrumbs2022.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/breadcrumbs2022.pdf

 

Breadcrumbs 2023 & Beyond

Bits and Pieces From a Dream of Time

https://breadcrumbs2023.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/breadcrumbs2023.pdf

 

The Return to Wonder

Field Notes from the Unknown

(Major edit underway – New copy colored blue and green)

https://thereturntowonder.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thereturntowonder.pdf

 

 

The Derivative Collection

 

Aftershocks Autumn 2024

https://aftershocksautumn2024.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/aftershocks2024.pdf

 

Frames of Reference

Peering Through the Windows of Perception

https://framesofreferenceperception.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/framesofreference.pdf

 

Imagination: The Great Usurper

https://imaginationthegreatusurper.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/imaginationthegreatusurper.pdf

 

Jesus on Prophets

What Any Seer Likely Faces Returning to the Cave of Origin

https://jesusonprophets.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/jesusonprophets.pdf

 

Lost in Translation

The Human Paradigm’s Linguistic Muddle

https://lostintranslationyajekim.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/lostintranslation.pdf

 

Michael’s Rabbit Hole

A Selection of Breadcrumbs & Other Aphorisms

https://michaelsrabbithole.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/michaelsrabbithole.pdf

 

Of Meaning & Purpose

Ponderings About the Futility of It All

https://ofmeaningandpurpose.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ofmeaningandpurpose.pdf

 

Of Noise & Silence

Contemplations on the Vibrations of Consciousness

https://ofnoiseandsilence.blogspot.com

https://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/ofnoiseandsilence.pdf

 

Standouts From the Return to Wonder Edit

Selections From the First Sixteen Chapters

https://standoutsfromthereturntowonderedit.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/standouts.pdf

 

The Call of the Eternal

A Conversation With My Self

https://thecalloftheeternal.blogspot.com

https://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/thecalloftheeternal.pdf

 

The Gordian Knot of Ethical Thinking

https://thegordianknotofethicalthinking.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thegordianknotofethicalthinking.pdf

 

 

The ‘And More’ Collection

 

Doubt, Doubt & More Doubt

https://doubtdoubtandmoredoubt.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/doubtdoubtandmoredoubt.pdf

 

History, History & More History

https://historyhistoryandmorehistory.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/historyhistoryandmorehistory.pdf

 

Imagination, Imagination & More Imagination

https://imaginationandmoreimagination.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/imaginationimaginationandmoreimagination.pdf

 

Mystery, Mystery & More Mystery

https://mysterymysteryandmoremystery.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/mysterymysteryandmoremystery.pdf

 

Patterns, Patterns & More Patterns

https://evenmorepatterns.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/patternspatternsandmorepatterns.pdf

 

Reincarnation, Reincarnation & More Reincarnation

https://reincarnationandmorereincarnation.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/reincarnationreincarnationandmorereincarnation.pdf

 

Science, Science & More Science

https://yajekimscienceandmorescience.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/sciencescienceandmorescience.pdf

 

 

The Singles Collection

 

59 Moments to The Way It Is (And Is Not)

https://59momentstothewayitisandisnot.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/59momentstothewayitisandisnot.pdf

 

Of the Human Journey

Along with ‘Got God?’ and ‘Ten Reflections’

https://ofthehumanjourney.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ofthehumanjourney.pdf

 

The Mystery of the Mystery

https://themysteryofthemysteryseries.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/themysteryofthemysteryseries.pdf

 

The Real is Discovering

https://therealisdiscoveringseries.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/therealisdiscoveringseries.pdf

 

To Be, or Not to Be

https://thetobeornottobeseries.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thetobeornottobeseries.pdf

 

Who Was the First?

https://thewhowasthefirstseries.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thewhowasthefirstseries.pdf

 

 

The Sidebar Collection

 

A Short List of Books for the Up and Coming

Some Written Works That May Help Get the Young Up to Speed

https://listofbooksfortheupandcoming.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashortlistofbooksfortheupandcoming.pdf

 

Breadcrumbs: The Original Blog

https://michaelsbreadcrumbs.blogspot.com/2015/01/under-construction_28.html

 

Conversations

A Variety of Letters, Emails, Texts, & Sundry Odds 'n Ends

https://conversationsyajekim.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/conversations.pdf

 

Definitions

An Incomplete Selection of Contemplative Definitions

https://definitionsyajekim.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/definitions.pdf

 

Ditties for the Bluegrass Pyre

https://dittiesforthebluegrasspyre.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/dittiesforthebluegrasspyre.pdf

 

Even More

Titles, Titles & More Titles

https://theevenmoreseries.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/theevenmoreseries.pdf

 

Jester Amok

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10212852298760058&type=3

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.1311100495387&type=3

 

My (Not Quite) Haiku

https://mynotquitehaiku.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/mynotquitehaiku.pdf

 

Once Upon a Christmas

https://onceuponchristmas.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/onceuponachristmas.pdf

 

Possible Last Words & Epitaphs

https://possiblelastwordsandepitaphs.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/possiblelastwordsandepitaphs.pdf


Sketches of the Once Upon a Time

A Few Epiphanies and Other Hallmark Moments

https://sketchesoftheonceuponatime.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/sketchesoftheonceuponatime.pdf

 

Spam Responses (a.k.a., WTF Is This Shit!?)

https://spamresponsesakawtfisthisshit.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/spamresponsesakawtfisthisshit.pdf

 

The Corollaries of Yaj Ekim

https://corollariesyajekim.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thecorollariesofyajekim.pdf

 

The Standard Ripostes

The Scribe’s Go-to Responses to This and That in the Day-To-Day

https://thestandardripostes.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thestandardripostes.pdf


Titles, Titles & More Titles

https://evenmoretitles.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/titlestitlesandmoretitles.pdf

 

Uncle Sam Says

https://whatunclesamsays.blogspot.com

https://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.1311088415085&type=3

 

 

(Please note all writings are subject to annual updates and editing,
so downloading current PDF copies every once and a while,
might be a good idea if you want the most current version)
 

 

Facebook

 

Michael Holshouser

https://www.facebook.com/michael.holshouser/?show_switched_toast=0

 

Michael’s Little Warehouse of All Things Amusing, Absurd & Profound

https://www.facebook.com/notes/344174083313569

 

Fichier Circulaire de Michaël (Michael’s Circular File)

https://www.facebook.com/LeFichierCirculaireDeMichael

 

Yaj Ekim

https://www.facebook.com/yaj.ekim.1

 

Hughson Union High School Class of ‘72

https://www.facebook.com/Hughson-Union-High-School-Class-of-72-301790023189950

 

 

Blogger

 

Michael Holshouser

https://www.blogger.com/profile/12270094801824803661

 

 

Twitter/X

 

Michael Holshouser

https://twitter.com/YajEkim

 

 

A Collection of Miscellaneous Blogs

 

Final Exit and Related Links

https://finalexitandrelatedlinks.blogspot.com

 

COVID-19 Information Links

https://covid19informationlinks.blogspot.com

 

The Four Agreements

https://donmiguelsfiveagreements.blogspot.com

 

The Blind Men and the Elephant

https://theelephantandheblindmen.blogspot.com

 

Of A Philosophical Nature

https://ofaphilosophicalnature.blogspot.com

 

Uncle Sam Says

https://whatunclesamsays.blogspot.com

 

The Joyful Curmudgeon

https://thejoyfulcurmudgeon.blogspot.com

 

Quotes, Quotes & More Quotes

https://quotesaplenty.blogspot.com

 

Fichier Circulaire de Michael

https://michaelscircularfile.blogspot.com

 

50 Rules Kids Won’t Learn in School

https://50ruleskidswontlearninschool.blogspot.com

 

How to Work in Any Environment

https://howtoworkinanyenvironment.blogspot.com

 

12 Rules You Can Live By

https://12rulesyoucanliveby.blogspot.com

 

Election 2016: The Rise (and Fall?) of Donald Trump

https://theriseandfallofdonaldtrump.blogspot.com

 

Michael's Little Warehouse of All Things Amusing, Absurd & Profound

https://michaelslittlewarehouse.blogspot.com

 

 

Nine Translations of the Ashtavakra Gita

 

The Heart of Awareness (Byrom)

https://theheartofawareness.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/theheartofawarenessbyrom.pdf

 

Ashtavakra Gita (Marshall)

https://theashtavakra.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakrafitamarshall.pdf

 

Bitten by the Black Snake (Schoch)

https://bittenbytheblacksnake.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/bittenbytheblacksnakeschoch.pdf

 

A Duet of One (Balsekar)

https://aduetofone.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/aduetofonebalsekar.pdf

 

Ashtavakra Gita (Richards)

https://anotherashtavakragita.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakragitarichards.pdf

 

Astavakra Samhita (Wood)

https://astavakrasamhita.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/astavakrasamhitawood.pdf

 

Ashtavakra Gita (Shastri)

https://ashtravakrageeeta.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakragitashastri.pdf

 

Ashtavakra Gita (Saraswati)

https://ashtavakragitasaraswati.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakragitasaraswati.pdf

 

Ashtavakra Gita (Vedic Scriptures)

https://ashtravakrageeta.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakragitavedic.pdf

 

 

Ashtavakra Gita: I Am Shiva

 

Ashtavakra Gita: I Am Shiva

https://ashtavakragitaiamshiva.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/ashtavakragitaiamshiva.pdf

 

I Am Shiva Comparison Chart

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/iamshivacomparisonchart.pdf

 

 

Four Translations of the Avadhuta Gita

 

Avadhuta Gita: Song of the Ever-Free (Marshall)

https://avadhutagitasongoftheeverfree.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/avadhutagitasongoftheeverfree.pdf

 

Song of the Avadhut (Abhayananda)

https://songoftheavadhut.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/songoftheavadhut.pdf

 

Avadhut Gita (Shastri)

https://avadhutgitabydattatreya.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/avadhutgitabydattatreya.pdf

 

The Song of the Ascetic (Sinha)

https://thesongoftheasceticavadhuta.blogspot.com

https://thestillnessbeforetime.com/thesongoftheascetic.pdf

 

 

Translations of Other Ancient Writings

 

Tao Te Ching: Verse One

https://taotechingverseone.blogspot.com

 

Tao Te Ching (Marshall)

https://theperennialway-taoteching.blogspot.com

 

Bhagavad Gita (Marshall)

https://bhagavadgitamarshall.blogspot.com

 

Yoga Sutras (Marshall)

https://yogasutrasbypatanjali.blogspot.com

 

Dhammapada (Marshall)

https://buddhasdhammapada.blogspot.com

 

The Book of Ecclesiastes (Marshall)

https://21ecclesiastesmarshall.blogspot.com

 

Atma Bodha (Chinmayananda)

https://theatmabodha.blogspot.com

 

The Essence of the Ribhu Gita (Ramamoorthy & Nome)

https://theribhugita.blogspot.com

 

Yoga Vasishta Sara (Ramasramam)

https://yogavasishtasara.blogspot.com

 

Crest-Jewel of Discrimination (Madhavananda)

https://crest-jewelofdiscrimination.blogspot.com

 

Mandukya Upanishad & Mandukya Karika of Gaudapada (Panoli)

https://mandukyaupanishadpanoli.blogspot.com

 

Gaudapada: Advaita Vedanta’s First Philosopher (Jones)

https://advaitavedantasfirstphilosopher.blogspot.com/2020/02/on-tradition.html

 

 

Translations of Ancient Writings by Bart Marshall

 

Avadhuta Gita: Song of the Ever-Free

https://avadhutagitasongoftheeverfree.blogspot.com

 

Ashtavakra Gita

https://theashtavakra.blogspot.com

 

Tao Te Ching

https://theperennialway-taoteching.blogspot.com

 

Bhagavad Gita

https://bhagavadgitamarshall.blogspot.com

 

Yoga Sutras

https://yogasutrasbypatanjali.blogspot.com

 

Dhammapada

https://buddhasdhammapada.blogspot.com

 

The Book of Ecclesiastes

https://21ecclesiastesmarshall.blogspot.com

 

 

Writings by Bart Marshall

 

Verses Regarding True Nature

https://versesregardingtruenaturemarshall.blogspot.com

 

One Hundred Two Haiku

https://onehundredtwohaikumarshall.blogspot.com

 

 

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Of Noise & Silence

Contemplations on the Vibrations of Consciousness

https://www.thestillnessbeforetime.com/ofnoiseandsilence.pdf

https://ofnoiseandsilence.blogspot.com

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Who have the eyes to see and the ears to hear

The mystery in which each and every one

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